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should i go back to blogging?
i mean i’ve been blogging for god-knows-when and i totally enjoy it but when the blog get known – it just sucks.

you are deprive of your own free space.
every word you say have to be thought through a million-zillion times esp if it is a sensitive issue or if you are blogging about someone who might one day chance into your chamber of deepest darkest secrets.

doom are you then.
wahaha.

i dunno should i should i not?
been pestering by so many people to UPDATE MY BLOG!. in the case not here but when we meet up. coz they know i’ve not updated. =P

laughs.

i’m afraid this would be a channel for verbal abuse and hatred would grow within. life is poly is indeed fun but taxing. and i enjoy it but not everyone do. i’m afraid i might just hurt someone without realizing it here with the crazy assignment we are given. it’s not easy to keep your mood in control and not bite when people ask question that are obvious.

poly.
to me i find it rather relaxing. crazy you might say but I AM SUPERWOMAN! laughs*
been through many projects and tight schedules in secondary school. so devoting all my time to purely work is viewed as an enjoyment to me. i love being busy. at least it better than having all the time in the world but without a purpose to do or without a company to do the things you like with you or without any capability to do things you wanna do.

ha. i’m confusing you guys. that’s my main purpose. laughs.*

okay. i got to admit i hate form exploration. the models we have to do is like. arghhhh. shall not elaborate more. makes my blood boil only!

me.
i thrive on challenges. — a unique breed of the human species.
and only proclaim a task complete when it reach perfection.
i want to excel very much in design school as would go all out to achieve not just a certificate but many certificates.

i am that hungry for success.
i know my actions would sometime hurt others and send some wailing for the perfection i seek but it is because i want it very much.

leaving away from home is not easy and lonely.
i come from a close knitted family.
of 3.
been through a lot of heart aches as one family.
bleeding inside but a brave front we put even to each other.
lost, many at times.

unsure, uncertain.
hurt, hatred.

but love and god’s providence we still manage.
thankyoufather.

i’ve always loved,love and forever will love art.
something not many people would and can comprehend.
it is not about the money it would bring but the love and the satisfaction. (hiyo! i sound like some pervert. =X)

but it is because of the standards i see that the other classes are producing.
it’s like so so good.
and i am competing with them for jobs next time! =X

OH MY GOODNESS!
can i just die?

-fashion designers
ratio of successful to unsuccessful
1:90!!!

that is why i am so freaked out.
my school intake for apparel design is 70 a year.
so if the ratio is true,
all would not be successful!
they would not be designers designing clothes and stuff but have jobs such as merchandiser, wardrobe planner, buyer… etc.

sad right!

i wonder what is the ratio for interior designers?
1:1000?

so many school offer them. =X
i don’t wanna know.

ha.
i am enjoying writing nonsensical rubbish like this a lot and really hope i can do so again here.
but…

i’m afraid. =(

anyway, FYI, if you are wondering who the hell am i and you have been reading all the blahblahblah above then good luck to you cause i am going to write an extremely long post and i won’t reveal who i am just yet. youyi should know i aces at this. laughs.*

oh yar.
i am planning to beat the COMDI 2000words word limit to hit.
wish me luck.
but i guess it is much easier with writing almost anything.
=D

let me now talk about today.
okay fine yesterday. it’s 1:44am so it’s yesterday.
15thjuly2007.
to sum it up- i woke up late. missed a chance to taste my Vietnam friend ‘s cooking. did some reading up for the project. went out to meet a buyer.(ps: i’m a blogshop onwers. =P link) she was so nice and funny.laughslaughs. then i went to meet paul to borrow scale ruler. then to bpp(not BP petrol. LOL.) it’s bukit panjang plaza to get hamster food. then home. =D

my hamster’s not reproducing!!
WHY WHY?
-must be see me too adorable then would prefer me rather than each other.
FAINTS! haha. just kidding! =P

opss. side track.
oh yar! Swee Heng’s blueberry wafer very nice! my first time eating from that particular bakery. next time ask youyi buy. i know paris ris got one outlet. opss. =X

haha.

i guess i’ve hit over a thousand words now. =D
anybody care to count?
haha.

lalalala.
what do you wanna read about?
and i’m amazed you are still reading.

you are wasting your precious time on a paragraph totally devoted to crap and to hit the challenge set for myself – 2000.

now 1005.
up for the challenge?

=D
i shall blog more about myself.
since you guys manage to read all the chuck up. *smiling, show white clean teeth* LOL.

hello everybody!
i am
-usually tall.
-usually green and brown.
-found all over the world.
-a provider of food.
-a refuge for the birds and bunnies.
and of course many other animals and….. creepy crawlies (eewww. gives disgusted face*)
haha.
-the only source of oxygen naturally(if u separate H20 you get oxygen too so yar.) =)

guess who am i?

*winning entries would receive a kiss from me! terms and conditions applied!
wahahahaha!

i am so lame!
how can you guys ever stand??
laughs.

queen of crap has been my reigning title.
ha.
as you can see with all the crap i’ve posted.
anyway, crap and crab makes the sign of a cancerian if you flip the P, put the together (right for P and left for b) and curl their ends.
laughs.

69
and i’m a cancerian.
so i’m crappy crabby. =D
hahahas.

oh no still a long way to go to 2000 words and i’m sleepy. and i have not completed my floor plans. =X
should i just break them into two entries? will i even continue blogging? i don’t know.
tell me people, should i?

maybe i shall be back posting in this cyber world space, pending my everyday happening(as so to say) in a way, i believe people would have the reluctanc(y) to read. like this entry. don’t it long entries bore you?

i know you are nodding your head. =p
haha.

for fun’s sake. laugh with me.
hahaha.

come try this.

ha ha hahahaha.
hahaha haha.
ha ha ha ha.

ha ahahaha.
got all of them right?
LOL.
i can’t believe you are lame too.
=X

current 1202words. shall do my floor plans now if not my grouppies would skin me alive. LOL.

so ciaos.
i’ll be back with another entry to reach the 2000word limit. =D
i don’t always blog like this. read my previous entries. rather “emo”.

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i need to blog!

to vent out all my frustration. =(
but what can i say?

nvm.

i’m so tired.

finally taking a break from working but guess i’ve gotten used to the working life. been half asleep and awake at about 9 in the EARLY MORNING! FREAK! used to wake up at that time to rush down to work. AND today is the first official day that i’m no longer W-O-R-K-I-N-G. yet my sleeping habits just spoils it all. =( SICKENING!!

school’s starting soon. well, not really. i mean i’m getting my results on my posting back soon. 6th of march. wonder where i’ll go man. =S next phrase of education seem so uncertain. i’m anticipating and wanting to be part of what teenage hood is rumoured to be. Fun, Fun and more Fun. the prime time of our life-where children with the un-surpassble hyper-activeness, the curiosity and the somewhat freedom to experiment with matters of life.

partying. ohhhh. i so can’t wait. whatever with the english i’m using. i just want it to come.

[b]People Envy Your Ingenuity[/b]

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You’re a person with unique ideas, big plans, and a zany outlook on life. Many people look to you for inspiration.
People envy your creativity and “who cares?” attitude. They feel very ordinary next to you – and they usually are!

[b]What Do People Envy About You?[/b]

BACK IN ACTION!

I’M OFFICALLY GOING TO BLOG AGAIN AND I’M BACK WITH A BOOM!

MUHAHAHA!!

i so love my life.

HAHAHAHA.
i’m so loving my life. i’m meaning it sincerly. thing’s getting right. =)

i so love the song on ak’s blog.

lyrics:
Try to tell me what I shouldn’t do
You should know by now,
I won’t listen to you
Walk around with my hands up in the air
Cause I don’t care
Cause I’m alright, I’m fine
Just freak out, let it go
I’m gonna live my life
I can’t ever run and hide
I won’t compramise
Cause I’ll never know
I’m gonna close my eyes
I can’t watch the time go by
I won’t keep it inside

Freak out, let it go
Just freak out, let it go
You don’t always have to do everything right
Stand up for yourself
And put up a fight

walk around with your hands up in the air
Like you don’t care
Cause I’m alright, I’m fine
Just freak out, let it go
I’m gonna live my life
I can’t ever run and hide
I won’t compramise
Cause I’ll never know
I’m gonna close my eyes
I can’t watch the time go by
I won’t keep it inside
Freak out, let it go
On my own
Let it go

Yeah, yeah, yeah
Just let me live my life
I can’t ever run and hide
I won’t compramise
Cause I’ll never know
I’m gonna close my eyes
I can’t watch the time go by
I won’t keep it inside

Freak out, let it go
Gonna freak out, let it go Gonna freak out, let it go

breathing the air and facing the world anew, i’m going face everything bravely. i’m not going to hide!

Cancer:  

The Bottom Line

What you set in motion is well on its way toward being completed. You can’t undo it.

In Detail

Once the die is cast, it’s cast — and there’s nothing you can do about it. This fact may leave you feeling a bit helpless, but it could also help you reprioritize your life and eradicate a lot of stress. Going back in time and undoing (or redoing) something you did would be nice, but it’s just not possible. What you set in motion is well on its way toward being completed. Don’t try to step in and redirect it — there’s no way you’ll do anything but frustrate yourself.

it’seen a while since i’ve last blog. (= been ban. but my sis good mood today so allow me use. hahas.
i just wanna draw a big smile on my heart. i can’t be bother what people think of me anymore. it’s too tiring to do so. HECK@! =)

coming with a pure heart and intentions- can’t people just see. marked with demonic accusations is what they care. the world is fair. be loved and hated. hahas. -teresa.

i love italic fonts.wheeee….

put the smile back on. sincerly deep within.

yeah! one big problem settled for me.
it’s so so amazing. it seems God can really read my thoughts.

i so wanted to let my problems go with a helium balloon and my wish was granted by a donation i made. YEAH! the triangle i’m previously stuck in seems to be letting loose. BRAVO. i hope things would be fine now. only 93 days to O’s. Gosh. i’m so not studying.

show you my balloon of frustrations.

stuck within.

pouring it out.

last few moments.

letting it go.

up it went. BYE!

i hope God would read my pains and let me go free. i’ve been like a bird chained to it cage. longing badly to be freed, to see the world from above again, to feel the coldness of the clouds, to see the greenery and feed on the worms i love, and also to “Shit” on those i hate! muhahahaha. *grins. sitting on the window ledge with my legs bounded to the troubles, makes it impossible to stand up. =(

it’s a heavy burden i have to carry.
can i really be happy inside out?
why do i always have to wear the mask of the happy clown everyday?
why am i jinx?

i should be happy but my phone’s SPOILT! how great can my life get? SHEES. i cannot press the top left button and it so happens to be the “yes” button. so delete message? -yes,yes,yes,Yes,YEs,YES,YES!!!!!!!

BUT NOTHING HAPPENS!!!!

and my phone is only slightly more than 1 year old! wtf.

i’m getting insane. driven with what ever i encounter. the screamo which i once SO HATE seems to be getting me head over heels with them! ARGGHHHH .. SHIT!

can i hide away from the world??
please let me go!